stress rant

i swear alzheimers disease is a fucking nightmare. its soooo stressful to deal with- and no matter how much you try to be patient - it really makes you wanna go get wasted. for real man. last night my grama got up like 4 times- she tried 15 , and i had to hold her down..i love my grama to death but i had to be at work at 9am!- VALGAME EL SENOR JESUCRISTO! its difficult- me and my family- the ones that help- mind you- are on fucken edge yo. the other night she wanted to get up at 3am to go check on her chickens cuz' people were gona stel them, she thinks were in michoacan dude.....
she kept saying to call my grampa on the phone to pick her up earler cuz' the voices tell her that a cow killed my uncle- that fucken cow has killed my uncle so many times-hes fine, in mexico... anyway....

so earlier she wanted me to call my grampa so he can pick her up and take her home- hes been dead for like 2months now- if we tell her hes dead- shell forget like in two seconds- anyway, so i call my grampa- but my brothers on the other line pretending to be him- the shit we gotta do because we love her....
so im sitting there with "marci"- my grama , and i hear my brother talking like my grampa- it was fucken hilarious- i started choking- cuz it was so funny! i almost died- thats how bad i was choking!...but my grama aint stupid- she figured out it wasnt my grampa- she said it was some "cabron " that was there.. omigod- and its only gonna get worse
poor marci...

"..you can try the best you can, you can try the best you caaaaan, the best you can is good enough.."