ordinary things. im dealing with issues-trying not to. facing some.... situations are ....need.... ive made some mistakes.time doesnt and didnt stop. for anyone. not me . gets more confusing everyday.
i heard the ice cream truck pass the other afternoon on my street. it was playing "fur elise" i felt like i was in a movie..... i like that song.
a picture of my grammas arm. the big day tomorrow. im leaving in a little bit to long beach. moms spinal surgery is tomorrow. grammas in the ICU now cuz' she was being ignored where she was. she got two fucken bags of blood transfused and peletts of i dunno what the fuck. my mom is really nervous about herself and her mom to top it off. my gramma would be fine- we took her in again for throwing up and now she got two pints of blood transfused, and her arm keeps bruising up cuz of a blood thinner they gave her and her fall didnt fucken help we kept asking the nurses for a smaller gown- they never gave her a smaller one. at least a kids one you know? shit shes only 4'5in. ahhhhh. i dunno what to think anymore. i dont want to feel anything im too scared.this sucks right now. but my grammas in stable condition she should be cool. im gonna change my socks and im gonna go see her in a bit before we leave to long beach.
so i got a ticket on my way down from a mountain. i was going fast compared to the usual 35 mph which i always drive no matter what i do. it was funny actually. i was probably going to roll down los padres national forest... that was my plan and i was listening to bjork really fucken loud this song actually, it was funny. i probably wont laugh when i see how much i have to pay.oh well. i had some good ass kettle corn today, its the only kind i eat fresh ones. and i slept on the grass at some park and i guess people were taking pictures of me. weird.
i was in the ER just me and some homeless man. it was interesting. he had nowhere to go and i didnt feel like going home. he was bossing me around- he wanted to watch a movie, then sports and he wanted the tv volume up. i guess i was the official channel changer. it was cold in there like at 3:30am . my gramma was back in the hospital last night she threw up and was delirious, i almost had an anciety attack, i was scared. so were my two uncles. she had just been out that afternoon at 5pm. i dunno whats going on with her. she has a funny heart rythm. speaking of funny, she had to be restrained today, her nurse brought out some fabric boxing glove like restraints to keep her from yanking out her IV again. oh and she fell too, she had a black eye and a "chipote" on her right eye. oh and shes got the biggest fucken bruise ive ever seen. her whole arm is red, blue and purple BAD. when the nurse put those gloves on her- it was hilarious. but i was crying at the same time. it was funny as hell but the tears were coming out- not cuz i was laughing but because it has reached this extreme. off to the LBC on fri. moms nervous- so am i. well see.......itll be okay.
for better care of your teeth, the above things help. the important thing in looking for is "recaldent" in anything you brush with or chew. and using woven floss, not waxed or gentle or whatever bullshit they say. i gots the heads up from a dentist on this stuff. inside info i guess. and why am i blogging about this shit at 2 am? cuz' i cant fucken sleep and yeah im a total blogging nerd, and i dont give a fuck either. not like anyone really reads all this anyway. so my gramma fainted again so shes still in the hospital. shes fine dont worry. she gets embarrassed cuz' i see her butt cheeks, not that i really want to but i have to help mer sit on the toilet. i wonder whose gonna help me with my ass cheeks when im 85? maybe i wont make it that far.... anyway, she almost hopped out of the hospital bed on me before her CAT scan they never did cuz she was outta control. i actually broke a sweat trying to hold her down and keeping her from jumping about three and a half feet down to the floor. (those ER beds are really high).
so yeah, okay. done blogging now. oh and did i mention im unemployed? moms having surgery next week, well see how that works out. now go brush your teeth.* and happy 4th of july.heres one of my favorite movie scenes, and song- gets me everytime too. i love how they did this.
