Wednesday, May 28, 2008

be thankful for what you've got-william devaughn


"I guess that’s what books do. Take you places. Inside and out. Move you. Inside. And out. You are at a different place after you read the book than you were before you read it. In many ways you are a different person as well." - The Alchemy #3- david mack

i need to read something. something cool. except Pablo Neruda.I don't know what the fuck I picked up the other day at the bookstore, it was a poetry book by his writings, and I already know if I start to read something by this foo' I'm floored. Man, if you can read in Spanish I tell you, I can't handle it. It's so damn deep. I wanted to buy it so bad cuz' it was so damn great, but i know better. i dont need to be suicidal n' shit. its that good. the amount of melancholy this guy describes within the first phrases of anything, its laid on thick man. so i didnt buy it. Pablo Neruda's writings are so full of "metaforos", and if you havent watched Il Postino the movie, I recommend it. its good.it makes me lazier than i already am- its so relaxing.it takes place in italy and stuff like that.

anyway, ive just been working and not much else. i tell you if it wasnt for mexican novelas or soap operas on Univision (channel 34) if you have cable or whatever, watch El Fuego En La Sangre- its good. if it wasnt for that novela, i'd be extra bored. i hate summertime. i guess i could be making arts but i havent.
my grandma's been okay this week shes with us. ummm, oh tomorrow i see The Cure in concert in Santa Barbara, and I'm going to try to stay away from any alcoholic beverages, if you know The Cure's music you'll understand.....
but all has been okay.the kids i teach art to have really liked the lessons i give them. last week i taught them about chinese paper cuts, which i was surprised my ten cuts were in tact after telling them they were worth a lot of money. they cost me one dollar in Chinatown for ten*, but they handled them with care. and this week im teaching them about native american clothing which they have to design and also design their own moccassins.

so yeah Pablo Neruda, he's good.the impact of the words are much stronger in Spanish. so i go on this site looking for a translated example and heres the first one i click on jeeeez......

"All those men were there inside,
when she came in totally naked.
They had been drinking: they began to spit.
Newly come from the river, she knew nothing.
She was a mermaid who had lost her way.
The insults flowed down her gleaming flesh.
Obscenities drowned her golden breasts.
Not knowing tears, she did not weep tears.
Not knowing clothes, she did not have clothes.
They blackened her with burnt corks and cigarette stubs,
and rolled around laughing on the tavern floor.
She did not speak because she had no speech.
Her eyes were the colour of distant love,
her twin arms were made of white topaz.
Her lips moved, silent, in a coral light,
and suddenly she went out by that door.
Entering the river she was cleaned,
shining like a white stone in the rain,
and without looking back she swam again
swam towards emptiness, swam towards death."-Pablo Neruda
click here for more poems*

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Petula Clark - "Downtown"

Let's pretend you care and I'll tell you about my weekend.
I was re-born. A new beginning. I'm not shitting you. I was reborn and not in that Christian BS kind of way. Saturday I gave my problems to the wind- Thanks to Mr."Wolf Song", a real life Shaman. He knew what was up. It was trippy. And he was blind YO! Extra props. I think all of that spiritual stuff is waaaaaay fascinating. He helped- I feel relaxed and calmer.

It was way cool. I had never been to a POW WOW before until Saturday. It was at the Chumash Museum in Thousand Oaks. It was the first year they do it. I keep missing the Santa Inez POW WOW, but this one was cool since Im a beginner. Oh, just found this cool site 500Nations.
I like attending other culture people's events. I had some fry bread I used to know how to make it but I lost the recipe I had gotten in Home Ec class in high school.

Anyway, on the way back from the POW WOW, my family and I were cruisin' around listening to Art Laboe's Killer Oldies on the radio. I love when were out just drivin' around.
I know gas is expensive like a MF (according to Paul Mooney there hasn't been a drive by in LA in months*). But the point is, I spent a great afternoon with my family. I love them. I couldnt of asked for anything greater. We drove around, stopped and had a great dinner, we watched the Yankees play- even though they lost to the Mets- I had 40 oz of berry cider and got a great buzz going- kept me singing the whole drive back home to what I like to call "the radio challenge"- I change the station and I see if I know the song playing which I usually do especially if oldies are on. Me being tipsy pissed off my mom, but whatever, I had a great time.

I was re-born, listened to the drumming circles, watched feathered and beaded people dance, had a good dinner with my familia, saw my man Derek Jeter, had some ice cream for dessert, got a good ass buzz going, and sang the whole way home to some of my favorite music.

perfect.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

jay z

You could've been anywhere in the world wide web, but you're here with me.
I appreciate that.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

my grandma's falling apart.

and i dont know what to do. all i can do is listen and watch her slowly walk to the restroom like 70 times per day cuz' she keeps forgetting she went. just now i kissed her forehead in the bathroom as she was washing her hands and i went to the room- she asked me "wheres the restroom at?".not cool. the worst is watching her cry and listening to her say that something is going wrong in her head. she realizes her brain is breaking down. that makes me really sad and it enrages me at the same time. i cant do a damn thing. last night i got up with her to the restroom like i always do since i sleep with her, and she almost fell- she scared the shit out of me- good thing i'm really buff and have arms of steel, i caught her! ON A LIGHTER NOTE (i didnt intend this blog to be such a downer) According to my grandma, one of my uncles- her youngest son; keeps getting killed by a cow. She hears things too, and its funny because she always hears someone say "oy, que a fernando lo mato una vaca" its the funniest shit ever. and sad at the same time.

Sunday, May 11, 2008

I just can't imagine being older than 25....


i dont want to.

here are some quotes from the Movie Awakenings 1990


Dr Malcolm Sayer: What we do know is that, as the chemical window closed, another awakening took place; that the human spirit is more powerful than any drug - and THAT is what needs to be nourished: with work, play, friendship, family. THESE are the things that matter. This is what we'd forgotten - the simplest things.



Nurse Beth: Dr. Sayer
Dr. Sayer: What is it?
Nurse Beth: It's a fucking miracle



Dr. Sayer: His gaze is from the passing of bars so exhausted, that it doesn't hold a thing anymore. For him, it's as if there were thousands of bars and behind the thousands of bars no world. The sure stride of lithe, powerful steps, that around the smallest of circles turns, is like a dance of pure energy about a center, in which a great will stands numbed. Only occasionally, without a sound, do the covers of the eyes slide open-. An image rushes in, goes through the tensed silence of the frame- only to vanish, forever, in the heart.

Anthony: [cheerfully] How's it going?
Frank: How's it going?
Anthony: Yeah, how do you feel?
Frank: Well, my parents are dead. My wife is in an institution. My son has disappeared out west somewhere.
[pause]
Frank: I feel old and I feel swindled, that's how I feel.

movie info

Thursday, May 8, 2008

i'm really nervous

i hate being human. i dont understand it. i dont understand them. strange. i wish i ......................just watch. "Prototype"

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

im into quotes

so i really like this one.....by david mack

"Don’t sacrifice your dreams for the illusion of security. There is no security. Realize there is no security and become comfortable with that. It will free you up to do what you really need to do."
-- Kabuki: The Alchemy #4

David Mack

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Monday, May 5, 2008

this is some really cool art shhhhhhh

about photo sculpture and instrument art

http://www.zimmershowandtell.org/

and this other site which i have no idea how i came across it, but its interesting.

colors magazine